You’re thinking “is it a sin to question my faith in God?” You are afraid of God’s judgment for asking why. You still have doubts, which is stopping you from fully trusting in God. First off, there is nothing wrong with you. Questioning is totally normal. Here is what to do if you are struggling with your faith.
Logically, God just doesn’t make sense to you. Maybe you’ve been raised in a church that don’t allow you to ask the “why’s” about God. So, you’re stuck with a belief that you feel is being imposed on you.
I get it, I felt the exact same way.
One day, I asked my mother if the pastor commits sins and she told me “never ask me that question, that is inappropriate.” Although she meant well, I felt like it was a sin that I had even questioned God.
I had a million questions about Him as a child and even as I grew older. Just like any child, ‘why’ was my favorite word (part of the reason why I became a journalist).
However, that curiosity quickly went away after being reprimanded many times, but the questions never did.
The truth is, being curious about God is actually a good thing. Keep reading and I’ll tell you why.
My story: Where the questioning began
Although I grew up Christian, I was always stagnant in my faith my whole life. I didn’t know it at the time, but my faith was standing in sand and not solid ground.
I thought the Bible was too old to apply to this day in age, but that could not be any further from the truth.
And more importantly, when I began seeking God with all my heart, I started to see how unbelieving I was. Seeds of unbelief was planted in my heart and I was unaware of it.
I remember one day watching a video titled “Dear Christians: Some of you will hate this video” by Far Away Distance. She approaches the topic in a loving and caring way, not to judge but to call fellow Christians out sin.
I felt strongly convicted by that video. I knew I was in the wrong and that I hadn’t been living a life pleasing to God, but I still wanted to justify myself and my actions.
I wanted to prove God that I wasn’t as guilty because no one had taught me better. However, that in itself was already a sin: that was pride. I then began to question if I truly believed in God.
I vividly remember being terrified the day when I realized that I don’t even understand why Jesus died for me. Sure, I had learned He died on the cross for my sins, but why? I didn’t understand the symbolism behind it.
What does One Man dying saves humanity mean? Why do I have to believe? If I am asking these questions, does that mean that all my life as a Christian was a lie? Is it a sin that I am questioning my faith in God?
Fearing God’s judgement
I felt a plunge in my heart when these questions started to pop in my head. Would God strike me to hell because I am questioning Him? Would He say “Begone, I never knew you,” the day of the judgement? Worst of all, would He abandon me? I was torn.
If you’re asking similar questions about God, it is a good thing. It means that you want to know more about Him. And God rejoices when we want to know Him deeper; even if you feel like it’s not what He wants from you.
God doesn’t condemn you for asking those questions. All He cares about is that you come to Him with your doubts and questions, in a humble manner whatever they are.
Sure, I was going to church and tithing and attending various Bible studies, but I didn’t know God for myself. I felt like I had no one to turn to with these questions because I was scared of being judged by other believers.
Identity crisis: Is it a sin to question my faith in God?
I knew that no one else could answer my questions but God, so I turned to Him with my unbelief. It was not easy to admit to God that I had doubt in Him after so many years of proclaiming myself as a Christian.
You have to realize that God sees your heart. You cannot hide your unbelief from Him because He already sees it. Don’t be ashamed by it.
The enemy wants you to feel shameful about it because He wants you to dwell in the lies. If you’re worrying God won’t love you anymore because you are questioning Him, read this:
There is NOTHING, I repeat NOTHING that can separate you from the love of God. Open your heart to Him, show Him your weaknesses. Do not hide from Him. He wants to help you. He is longing for you to come to Him. You ARE His precious child.
The moment I realized that I couldn’t deal with this by myself, the moment that I brought my unbelief to God with a sincere heart to seek Him; that was the moment that God began to remove doubts in my heart.
I had come to him crying with sorrow and a humble heart, asking Him to remove any seeds of doubt in me. We are sinful human. We cannot please God if it isn’t through the Holy Spirit interceding in us and for us.
And realize I said moment, not a time, not a day. It took time to pluck away where my unbelief was coming from and God began to show me the things that I needed to remove in my heart. And I know He will do the same for you too.
However ways you want to come to God with your doubts, do it with a sincere and humble heart. God doesn’t respond to the prayers of an arrogant and prideful heart.
If you truly want to know Him, seek Him with your whole heart as the Word says. Acknowledge that you are weak and that you need Him to help you understand who He is.
Don’t hide your unbelief
Dear sister or brother don’t hide in your unbelief. Satan wants to what we choose to hide in the dark against us. Don’t let the enemy have that power over you. Confess to a close believer friend that you struggle with this.
Bring it to light. Bring it to God because God is truth. God is love and He will never forsake you. Every Christian on this earth has had some sorts of doubts in this life. As humans, we are naturally inclined to think logically.
If your faith isn’t built on strong foundation, you will fall. Here is another verse in Matthew The parable of the sower who planted seed along the way, but the bird came and ate it up here is what Jesus says it means.
This is what the enemy does when we don’t have a strong foundation of why we believe. I encourage you to read the whole passage to get more context. Ask God to help with your unbelief. Be careful to not act all religious outwardly to compensate your unbelief in your heart.
Remember that God sees the heart. You may fool humans, but you cannot fool God. Don’t push aside your doubts even if you have one grain of it in your heart.
That grain gets bigger and bigger if you ignore it. Don’t let the enemy use your weakness against you. Let God transform your weakness into a strength so that you may glorify Him and others may see His work in you and glorify Him as well.
Confess to a close believer friend
When I was going through this confusing time, my friend Michelle was there all the way, listening and encouraging me to stay in prayer.
She encouraged me to go to church with her and I joined a Christian group on campus. Listening to sermon especially intentionally, I began to understand the Word.
I know you might have objections about joining a church or a Christian community because you’ve been hurt in the past by the people in them, but don’t let that determine your relationship with the Almighty.
Sure, those people might have condemned you instead of speaking truth in love into your life. They might have judged you wrongly, but that does not mean you should to give up on God.
Don’t let your past hurts determine your relationship with God.
Keep seeking for a godly community
Keep an open heart. You can’t expect God to act when you are not open to opportunities that arise in your life. Take this as an opportunity to even seek Him further to truly know what He’s like and not what other people pose to be.
Remember that people are sinful, and their sins should not determine whether you keep your relationship with God or not. Religion is a personal relationship with God first and foremost before comes communities.
Communities are there to help us, uplift us, but also keep us in check when our lives start to steer left. You need accountability. No one was born to live life alone.
Open you heart to God. Open your heart to others around you that are trustworthy and don’t be afraid to be vulnerable. Pray about joining a new community if you are unsure where to God or you feel alone.
God answers prayers and I am confident that He will show you the way.
Comment below your thoughts about this. Do you struggle with unbelief? What can you do about it? I love hearing from you!